Long & Short Days
Days that are enjoyable, peaceful & lovely
seem to feel short.
All the while days full of pain, disgrace, & remorse are seemingly long.
Why?
Have you felt this too? There was a time in my youth (9yrs.-11yrs.) when I remember life being full of joy. I would wake up on Saturday mornings with a mouthwatering smell of breakfast; throughout the week, listening to my sister's harmonious laughter, shockingly energized to go to school, I recall those days flying by: Life was awesome.
At the age of 12, I was introduced to pornography, and something shifted throughout the years to come. The smell of crisp bacon in the morning was still there, the joyful laughs of my sweet sister were ever present, and school was still fun, (sometimes) but I no longer noticed these good things. Despite the obvious 'good' that surrounded me (minor or major) I began to breeze through it as if it meant nothing.
Porn became important to me; my morning hunger was lustful desires instead of my mother's loving-made breakfast. The sweet sound that I sought throughout the week was found on the other side of the screen instead of my beautiful sister's joy. In an instant, the good things that I cherished became nothing but numbness and boring pleasure, and the following 8 years became a seemingly never-ending chase that almost led me to death, and boy how fast those years flew by.
However, this taught me something I hope you learn to do better than I did: Love what is good. Simple, but it took me 8 years to finally practice it; evil seemed good to me, but ultimately it was not. Seek and find the sweetness of truth and trust me friend, life will suddenly slow down and you will love every second of it.
“Light is sweet, and it is pleasant for the eyes to see the sun. So if a person lives many years, let him rejoice in them all; but let him remember that the days of darkness will be many. All that comes is vanity. Rejoice, O young man, in your youth, and let your heart cheer you in the days of your youth. Walk in the ways of your heart and the sight of your eyes. But know that for all these things God will bring you into judgment. Remove vexation from your heart, and put away pain from your body, for youth and the dawn of life are vanity. Remember also your Creator in the days of your youth, before the evil days come and the years draw near of which you will say, “I have no pleasure in them”; -” Ecclesiastes 11:7-12:1 ESV